My patience with Cooper has been running thin, our calendar seems to be spiraling out of control, and my efforts to serve my husband and put him ahead of myself has most definitely not been up to par. In searching deeper to try and figure out these times in my life, I would say 99% of the time the direct correlation is time in the WORD.
Why is it that we often try to fool ourselves into thinking that we can survive on our own strength, make wise decisions, be selfless, Godly people, without being in God's Word?
Needless to say, the Lord has been nudging me this week to get back to the basics. Love HIM, and serve my family. Everything else is extra on top. I think I've been doing all the "extras" and neglecting my first two loves. When you're knee deep in ministry, with both Jerrod and I on staff, Jerrod's job transitioning into a new role, raising a preschooler going on teenager, pregnant and all the anxieties that accompany that, running a home, making sure the laundry's clean and put away, maintaining lasting friendships - you just get a little tired, ya know?
It has absolutely nothing to do with not loving my life. I love the life that God has graciously given me and the opportunities and privileges of doing what we love to do. It more has to do with balance. Sometimes we all need to just get back to the basics and make sure that everything's in check. Otherwise, it's so easy for the wheels to fall off.
I believe God desires for all of us as believers to experience freedom in HIM. If we (I) are so caught up with the junk rather than the journey, then I think we've missed it. Our focus is the here and now rather the giant picture that the Lord so desperately wants us to get a glimpse of.