Fertility Update

After one of my first posts about where we are in the process of having more children, it dawned on me that many of you are probably wondering what's going on. To spare you the boring details, it has been a very long month and a half. The medicine did not work very well this month, so when I went in for a follicle check, there were only two and two small follicles at that. The nurse gave me a couple more days to let them grow, so when I went back in, only one had grown a little bit. Needless to say, I was not all that hopeful this month, but knew good and well that God could do whatever He wanted.

I have been on Clomid probably 12 different times and it has never messed with my cycles. I have always been very regular, but for some reason this month has been extra long. I finally started, so we are hoping to start our second month of treatment this time around. Our initial plan was to do two months of Clomid, possibly try injectibles in November and then if we were not pregnant by that time, we would like to do another laparoscopy for my endometriosis. This seems to be the best steward of our finances since we have obviously met our deductible this year due to having Tyler in February.

Infertility is such an exhausting journey. It is emotionally draining with all the waiting and hormones, it is spiritually draining knowing that the Lord is in complete control and desiring His perfect will, and financially draining since insurance doesn't cover hardly anything. We are just pooped! We know that having another baby, being pregnant, doing treatments....none of it makes our situation go away. We still miss Tyler terribly and frankly just want HIM back in our lives, but we know that this is impossible on this earth. We desperately desire more children, and selfishly I've kind of been praying for twins. I know it sounds silly and I know that the Lord knows exactly what we can handle, but it sure would be a huge blessing!

Please pray for our hearts, that we would be content with exactly where we are today. Pray that the Lord would be in the details of all our infertility junk and that He would make it obvious each step of the way. Pray that the Lord would bless us with one or more bundles of joy in His perfect timing. Pray that God would provide the means to continue with treatments if necessary and if not, that He would help us to steward our money wisely. We know and are confident that He is right here in our midst and He desires for us to be HOLY way more than He desires for us to be HAPPY. We are certainly becoming more and more sanctified through this process, so for that we are grateful. We are very blessed;)

Thank you for praying and taking this journey with us,

Jen