Overwhelmingly Blessed

Going on bed rest is something I never really saw coming. I never had issues with preterm contractions with either Cooper or Tyler, so I just thought, "Great, things will be smooth and I'll deliver on my c-section date." I did have Tyler early due to pre-eclapsia, but really thought it was kind of a freak thing and wouldn't have to go through that again....at least that's what I have been praying.

I have been overwhelmed at the thought of what me being on bed rest actually means for my family and my friends. My sweet husband has taken care of not only me, waiting on me hand and foot, but been an awesome Daddy to Cooper, playing with him, wrestling him, making all his meals, and taking the time to spend good, quality time with him. He's been amazing. For my sweet friends, it means a meal brought to the house, Cooper being dropped off at theirs, taking him for the morning or the afternoon, all of which as we all know, is one more added thing to a busy mom's schedule.

We have had meals set up for our family and I can't even begin to tell you how unbelievable it's been. Every time I open the google doc, there's more people that have signed up to bring a meal. I feel so blessed that Jerrod can come home from work and not have to worry about dinner. I am a "doer" by nature, so I love serving my family and making sure the house is picked up, a good meal is planned and executed, etc. It's so hard to not be able to "do" all those things right now. I feel so guilty on so many different levels, even though I know it's not my fault.

I'm trying to let go of the lie that I'm being "lazy." It honestly feels like that, especially when I'm feeling a little better and the contractions are under control. I feel like a lazy bum sitting here writing on my blog, reading a magazine, taking a nap or watching a video. I'm so thankful for a lap top where I am able to do some of my Kids Connection work from home, contact volunteers and work on our summer schedule. What a blessing to have it ;)

Although this is truly a season of transitions, I am trying to rest. Rest my body, rest my soul, rest my emotions, rest my mind and my heart. We are transitioning still to our life without Tyler, transitioning to our life to come in adding a new baby and being a basket case, transitioning things happening at work for Jerrod. Lots of new changes, not bad or good, just very different. I think we're still trying to figure out how it all works and how it all fits.

One thing I do know is this though.... I have seen some fun little answers to prayer. The Lord has really been showing me how much I need to let go of trying to control and fix everything and make everything work out. It's been fun to see Him prompting my heart to just pray instead. It's quite freeing to allow God to be the Sovereign God He is! It great to sit back and just let Him do the fixing!